Clew

RICHARD: Incidentally, just before/ just as the PCE starts to wear off, if one unravels (metaphorically) a ‘golden thread’ or ‘clew’, as one is slipping back into the real-world, an intimate connection is thus established betwixt the pristine-purity of an actual innocence and the near-purity of the sincerity of naiveté.

Sep 14, 2022 (contemplation)

While contemplating Never not this moment ¹ …

• Can immediately taste the “arriving here” of PCE reports (aka. stillness)
  • Music is raw; visual ambiance is getting to be brilliant … all the while happening more in the now-still “arena”
    • The concomitant stillness is very palpable; revealed via the cessation of hitherto-existant “movement”
    • It is the “moving” (in time) Identity that obscures it all otherwise.
• Ergo, stillness, as I experienced in a PCE, is a clew.
• The clew (or the end of it that is close to the PCE) is accessed by seeing (via contemplation and curiosity) if this moment is the same ¹ (over time), with only events on it changing (over time).
  • Otherwise, that which appears to be changing “behind” is the Identity
    • Realizing (successfully ‘seeing’) it not to be changing ▶️ identity going into abeyance

Sep 16, 2022 (haietmoba)

• The Never not this moment contemplation to have apperception happen is intimately tied to asking How am I experiencing this moment of being alive?. ²

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Oct 09, 2022 (silliness)

[..] I do find that simply declining to go down those lifestyle choices/ feeling narratives is enough [to sustain a mood of feeling good]. I now have a very simple mood journal, where I do nothing but track ‘feeling good’ vs ‘feeling $x’ at various times. A simple noticing of feelings is enough; then all I have to do is say “Oh yea, that’s not the right path” and then stop walking further down that path. [..]

“Before applying the actualism method – the ongoing enjoyment and appreciation of this moment of being alive – it is essential for success to grasp the fact that this very moment which is happening now is your only moment of being alive.” and “As one knows from the pure consciousness experiences (PCE’s), which are moments of perfection everybody has at some stage in their life, that it is possible to experience this moment in time and this place in space as perfection personified” are why (in addition to being aware of affective ongoing; as I gather with the help of a journal activity) it is possible that a “simple noticing of feelings is enough”

Oct 12, 2022 (method)

It became possible to make the choice to get back to feeling good, and I am understanding how exactly: The choice to be happy.

Nov 7, 2022 (Appreciation)

[in ctx of Vineeto’s appreciation advice]

Appreciating simply being alive. Never mind appreciating the cherries on top (material comforts, etc). Is that possible? Fascinating.

Nov 20, 2022 (discernment of Affective Vibes)

http://www.actualfreedom.com.au/richard/listdcorrespondence/listd14a.htm#09Nov09

RICHARD: I will take this opportunity to stress just how vital this matter of affective vibes is, in regards to successful actualism practice, as it is central to the ‘feeling harmless’ aspect of such practice [..] inasmuch the whole point is the minimisation – and the ultimate cessation via extirpation of ‘being’ itself – of any malicious feelings and, thus, their resultant transmission as affective vibes throughout the human psyche.

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It has got me beat how anyone can spend years and years reading and writing, to forums such as this, about actualism practice (and its aims or goals) yet all the while be ignorant of or ignoring the central feature of such practice … to wit: the transmission and the reception of the many and various affective feelings which make-up a feeling-being.

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RESPONDENT: When not face to face, I own my own feelings rather than project them onto others …

RICHARD: If (note ‘if’) the identity inhabiting this flesh-and-blood body circa 1980-81 was projecting ‘his’ feelings, through the closed door of ‘his’ ex-farmhouse, then ‘he’ would have felt a feeling of joie de vivre, just prior to opening the front door of ‘his’ home, despite the at-that-moment-unknown presence of a fuming wife on the other side (pacing up and down, in the front room, ready and willing to give ‘him’ an unwarranted serve for imagined slights she generated as her earlier good mood spiralled into negativity in ‘his’ absence).

It was by virtue of being observant thataway, above, that ‘he’ was then able, over the ensuing years, to become aware not only of many more instances of similar ilk but of the far-deeper, longer-ranging and more-powerful ‘psychic currents’/ ‘psychic energies’ (which we have not even mentioned in this exchange) that lie underneath/beyond the affective vibes.

Dec 3, 2022 (Sincerity)

Separating out facts from fiction (eg: Belief) is key. To be sincere is to stay close to what is factual; to be that.

Jan 15, 2023 (Priority; humanity -> pure intent)

I really have been procrastinating all these years, with one leg in humanity. Given that there are no other alternatives in humanity here (short of addiction/distraction), actualism is the only appealing option now. No. 1 priority, as it is said on the website. I’m arranging my life matters to that end [..]. Put my affairs in order, so I can spend maximum energy in the method (enjoying and appreciating come what may) and thereon to the final process, while relegating the various petty concerns to be not worth paying attention to.

[..] priorities are becoming much clearer to me now. No longer do I need to look for “connections” of some sort [..]; I can actually be happy with my own lifestyle/ hobbies/ preferences [..]. That, plus satisfying work [..] that pays for a good lifestyle is enough. All that’s left to do at this point is to become free; go gung-ho on actualism … boots and all approach.

(cf. Death contemplation)